It just hit me hard in My Lost Love

My mind is going a million miles a minute and I was sitting here thinking about your estranged son for some reason. I really wanted to meet him like we planned, but then I started crying because you are probably going to have her met him and when that happens… the relationship becomes more real. It’s a big thing. I’m sitting here crying like shit just hit me. I’m not over you. I don’t want you to be with anyone else. I know I have to just sit back and be an adult and let you live your life, but I don’t want to completely lose you. I need to live my life as well, but the life I want isn’t the one I have anymore. How did all this happen? Why did this happen? Did you stop loving me? Did I not make you happy anymore? I can’t handle the pain of you being with someone else. I can’t handle you being in a relationship with the person you cheated on me with. All I want to do every day is pick up the phone and hear your voice. I want things to go back to the way they were. I want to be able to talk to you through the day and have fun like we always did. Why am I still so in love with you when you broke my heart? My world was crushed that day. I felt my heart break into tiny pieces. I just want to wake up from this nightmare. This is not my life.