Can people really live alone and be happy? I keep thinking about my situation, the company I keep, and how I wish I was brave enough to sever toxic relationships in my life. K continues to text me but I am getting better at not allowing her to take hold of me. She becomes less compatible and less appealing day by day which I suppose is a good thing for me. I still can’t help but crave that connection with another person. She was the first girl that I thought was really attracted to me and I became drunk off the notion. I knew what was in front of me, that she still lives with her ex and male friend, how foolish I knew I was being to fall for her anyway and let myself believe the lies. I fell in love with my fantasy of her, the person in my head and not who was in front of me. They say to block her, ignore her, even be mean to her…but part of me doesn’t want to be alone. I just want someone to talk to and let’s face it, even when you know it’s a lie it still feels nice to be told you’re beautiful. I think distancing myself is a process but one that I’m still doing slowly but surely.
I have to work soon. It’s going to be a long night since I didn’t sleep…again. Who knows, maybe it was destiny that I came across this site. A small corner where I could let my secrets flow, releasing them to the breeze in order to find relief. I look forward to seeing my patients, they are small connections and it really does make me happy to help them. Two hours until work…I wonder if I could fall asleep and find a little peace.
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