Sigh. Cry. Why. in (W)hole

I really WANT to write, lately. But I just can't. I don't like it here. I feel depressed. I want it to look like OD, and it doesn't. I want it to BE OD... I knew this was coming, so why am I taking it so hard? It's like when Kasin went to Kindergarten and I didnt think I'd be upset. I was! I was so upset! FOR NO REASON! It's just like that. This makes me cry. Too much. I'm not a crier. At all. :(