Day 4 in 2018

It’s only Day 4 and I already feel a hermit-mode cycle coming on. It’s 6:00pm and I’ve done almost literally nothing today other than shower, dress, and buy groceries. I’m not sure why this happens to me - my best guess is that as an ENFP (my latest theory, which I quite like) I actually need people, interaction, and good vibes to fill up with energy and motivation. I always feel AMAZING when I come back from visiting my people in California. There is no one here that does that for me. It’s been a bad Jason day, and I think it’s my fault. I just feel annoyed whenever he tries to talk to me; annoyed that he was late to work today, annoyed that he smelled like cigarette smoke when he came home, annoyed that he took the garbage out ‘incorrectly.’ It’s all little stupid stuff. Why does it bother me so much? I’m just sitting in the dark with my buddy cat friend next to me, trying to summon up the energy to do anything other than sit here. Come on, Courtney, get up. You have things to do. It’s only been 4 damn days.