New age fuckery in Outside Experience

Yes fuckery.. so as long as I can remember I was raised to treat people how you want to be treated. I’ve got so much bullshit I deal with internally that I’m consciously aware that other people go through shit all the time so I try to be a decent human. Now don’t confuse that with someone who acts a certain way to fit in or have friends, because that’s not me. I’ve had the same group of friends since I was in high school, nearly 10 years ago.. and here comes the fuckery.. so I had my first serious adult relationship, we lived together, planned our future children’s names.. you know everything.. well 2 years down the road we split the sheets and that was that. Of course, he tried to pull me back in by clinging to my closest 3 friends. This isn’t about him, he can go fuck himself.. but wait, instead he decided to fuck my best friends sister. Not only did he decide to fuck her, but my 3 “friends” all knew and nobody told me. Not a single one of my friends had the decency to tell me… I’ve been nothing but loyal honest and respectful to these people. What makes it worse, my best friend and I have been friends for 20 years and she couldn’t even tell me her sister decided being with my ex is a good choice. Even though he is a alcoholic cheating asshole.. it’s pretty safe to say that I now feel like I have ZERO friends and I don’t remember how to make friends… do I even want friends after my first selection?