Decided to quit reading Middlemarch. At first, when it focused on Miss Brook, it was interesting but now I just don't feel connected to anything. It is not exactly an easy read. I think now I'll read Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn. Kinda liked Dark Places though the ending was disappointing.

Just woke up this morning and felt really depressed. For the longest time just laid there on the bed staring at nothing. Seems at my darkest moments I always set myself up for failure.

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So I began reading Gone Girl. Just like Dark Places it's all in first person. So far seems interesting if not at times crude. Read very little today. Not one of those days when you feel like doing anything at all.

In fist person, just like the previous book. I can empathize with that. Sometimes it seems that the only thing I do write that's not total s#$% is first person. It's somehow more natural to slip into somebody else and pretend you know what you are doing.