background i am getting married at the poughkeepsie grand hotel in poughkeepsie, ny on june 22nd, 2014. im about 5 months away. i live in nyc, which is almost 2 hours south and have been trying to plan this wedding almost on my own from here. its been frustrating.
im feeling really overwhelmed right now about all this wedding planning and my schedule for the next 5 months. ive been so overwhelmed i cant even think about all the lesson plans i need to be writing right now.
i thought that wedding planning was going to be more fun than this. its not fun at all. i thought i would like it because i am a planner. i like lists and to plan things out and whatever. but i guess im more of a day to day planner, not really long term. long term is difficult. i cant seem to figure out my "vision" or whatever.
i was on the phone all day doing wedding planning things. i understand why women go nuts and become bridezillas. i feel like im not doing this right. i feel like my wedding is going to be a disaster.
the one thing that got me yesterday was this passive aggressive email from my reverend about how he hasnt received my contract (which i emailed to him and he couldnt open 3/12 pages...he needed a hard copy because of that and i forgot to mail it so fine) and that hes booked for a rehearsal the night before my wedding. he offered 2 nights during the week prior to the wedding, but i already told him the only day we could do was saturday because my entire wedding party is traveling. we picked poughkeepsie because it was a halfway point for our families. somehow, this reverend doesnt comprehend this and thinks we can just show up whenever. anyway...ive been stressed about it since last night when i read the email. ive been emailing my wedding coordinator at the hotel all day about it and i called the rehearsal dinner venue to see if maybe we can do something late there. right now, that looks like our best option, even though its the worst option. basically, my reverend can meet between 10am-1pm and after 8pm. we cant meet early because we cant even check into the hotel until 4pm and theres nothing else to do there all day. we'd basically be waiting around for almost 3 hours just to check into the hotel. 8pm works for us and the reverend, but not for my wedding coordinator. my wedding coordinator can meet at 5pm and says the reverend isnt necessary for the rehearsal (????), but a rehearsal is already included in the package im paying the reverend for. do you understand my stress? i hate coordinating schedules! i hate it! so...my best bet is to meet with the reverend for the rehearsal late at the rehearsal dinner. problem...they cannot guarantee space for us to conduct a rehearsal. the only spot they can guarantee, with good weather, is right outside the restaurant, on the sidewalk next to the river. if thats what its gotta be, than thats what its gotta be! its either that or we do the rehearsal with my wedding coordinator at 5pm at the hotel and my reverend meets up with us later at the rehearsal dinner to go over logistics (when we do the unit candle, who says what, etc.) so who knows! its 5 months away and im freaking out.
then my moms complaining about the types of flowers in the center pieces and how much the chair covers are going to cost and how she doesnt want pigs in a blanket for appetizers. sigh she makes my head spin. and usually, my mother and i have a great relationship. shes so different with this wedding stuff! i never guessed shed be like this. who cares if its mums in the centerpieces? who give a shit if the chairs are covered with fabric? who cares if there are pigs in a blanket? (i really like those, but mom says theyre tacky...) sigh i dunno. and im not a mean person and i dont have the heart to be like "mom, its my fucking wedding. chill out. these things arent what matters!" i dont want to be a bitch to my mom, so i just say that i will make sure i can do what i can. i have always been a people pleaser, especially my parents, so its difficult for me not to just give in and do what they want. i honestly couldnt give shit less what types of flowers are in the center pieces. theyre flowers that are going to go to someone elses house and die. im not a huge fan of flowers. theyre pretty, but in the grand scheme of a wedding, theyre minute. the point of a wedding is to bring 2 lives together...well i guess thats the point of a marriage. a wedding is the celebration of bringing those 2 lives together. i dont think people are going to be looking at the flowers on the table when we're all up dancing.
im also struggling with how to keep up with my theme. my theme is 1950s rock n roll. my fiance and i love rock n roll music and his mother is a huge elvis fan, plus im a music teacher, so we decided this would be a fun theme. all we want for our wedding is for it to be FUN. we're big kids at heart, so making the wedding as fun as possible was important to us. my sister is a graphic designer, so shes doing the invitations, which are supposed to look like record covers from the 1950s. i have my own record collection, so i was thinking that would be a good way to go. i dont want it to look like a kids birthday party though, with plastic records hanging everywhere. my dress is very 1950s vintage looking (ill have to figure out how to post a picture on here soon) and the boys are all going to wear fedoras (we need to find them...) as well as those white and black dress shoes and the girls are wearing short 1950ish styled dresses. theyre a modern take on a 1950s silouhette. ive asked everyone to wear short cocktail dresses and come dressed vintage. we're going to mainly play 1950s rock n roll and lots of jazz music. im handing out CDs with 1950s music on it for our favors. but thats about where it ends. how is the room going to look 1950s? i just dont know :( any suggestions would be great!
sigh ive just got so much going on! its all these appointments and making decisions, plus my job has been so demanding with lesson plans and setting up concerts and dealing with classroom management issues...i just dont know how its all going to pan out. ive been so tired and stressed. i ended up falling asleep accidentally this afternoon for about a half an hour and now its almost 6:30pm. havent even touched my lesson plans. gotta get going on that..
alright, prosebox. fiance is home. later.
~mana~
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