Damn brain in Life

I have a fairy tale love. I really really do and that’s not sarcastic like i usually am. He is amazing to me in every way. I think that’s my issue though. He is so great that no matter what i do i feel like it should be better. I feel guilty for any reason i get annoyed with him even when deserved. My family thinks i act like I’m in an abusive relationship like my first relationship, but it’s not. I really think he deserves better than me.. though hes never given me any indication that this is so. I wish i knew how to change my fucked up brain.