Woke up at 8am, she woke me up. Slept a total of some 9 hours. Last night watched 3 My Family episodes until 11. Still Not Dead, though seem to be not bleeding anymore.
Mood: -2.
This morning there is yet again not a cloud in the sky, dreadful. It says that tomorrow will be cloudy, which I really hope it will. Also yesterday she offered me one of those cherry liquor candies that the parasite bought her on Valentines day. I've been kinda thinking of taking one after my week of trying to live without temptations is over, but what the heck was she doing trying to corrupt me with it? I of course said no, because a) my resolve and b) I'm not going to take it in front of her. Anyway, if she opens them tomorrow I'll just take one to save it for later. Also marvelously I have not taken a single Raffaello candy of hers even thought there's a few left.
I've finished reading Flowers in the Attic. To the end it got really sad. When deciding how many stars to give it I really had to think for a while. Before I would have said 3, because despite its stupidity it was still enjoyable, but towards the end it got to the level of 4 stars. But did the good parts override the bad parts? In the end I decided to do what my gut told me and gave it 4 stars. Monday I'll start reading Petals in the Wind, or maybe Sunday.. Saturday. I don't know I'll see how I feel like.
Made fried eggs again today. They taste kind of funny. Might be old, been there for at least a good month. And now I'm getting hypochondriacy again. Anyway today she'll make me pizza and I'm scared that the cheese might not be good and then I would not have eaten anything good all day and I honestly don't know what I'll do Friday. I already feel so apathic that I'm barely making any food for myself. The month of her sickness has really spoiled me.
Yesterday I've yet again regretted that there's still nothing about the work. I mean it would be so cool if I could just tell her buy me this and she'd have to without any hmms because it was my own money. But maybe I was just harbouring illusions that there would be any change in my life and this is how it will always be. It's times like these that I really hope that the 2012 Apocalypse would be true. Years ago I kind of regretted that I would not be here to see the noise and then laugh when all of it would turn out to be bogus and yet here I am...
She bought me cheese chips because they had a discount. It has strengthened my resolution to try and live without temptations and only receive what faith gives you. I know I should not set my expectations too high because time has shown me the weakness of my character, but I really hope I can go through this.
She made me pizza. It was delicious and the cheese was really good. It was exactly what I wanted. Then she went outside for her walk. This night there's Bones on the TV so I'll have something to watch. And tomorrow it's True Blood day. END OF ENTRY.
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