Woke up at 8 am, got up at 9.30. Slept a total of some 10 hours. Still not dead. Still bleeding.
Mood: -2 Just felt really depressed through out the day.
[17:23] Ate only 3 sandwiches today, wasn't hungry but slowly getting there. I hope she'll be home soon any maybe she'll buy some snacks so that I don't starve before supper.
Started adding interests on OD and now suddenly its 2 pm. How did this happen? Hopefully Sunday will be cloudy so then I can watch Dexter Season 6.
The butter that the parasite bought was not tasty at all.
So the current reading list goes something like this:
The Dollanganger series (5 books)
Phantom of the Opera
Mysteries of Udolpho
Ender's Game series (10+ books I'm not really sure)
Father Goriot
The Valley of Fear
Chronicles of Narnia (7 books)
Doctor Zhivago
The Once and Future King
Assuming I read all the series that's a total of 28 or so books, so if I'm gonna get my goal of reading at least 4 books every month then that's reading material for some 7 or so months aka till September..... I don't like so much planning.
It used to be dark by this time =( Slowly the winter is leaving us.
Called Iveta and told her to buy bread. I only hope (uselessly) that the parasite won't come today. If he does then I will give her my self-respect speech that I made up this morning in bed.
Despite my hopes I still have no job. =( It seems my problems won't solve themselves without any action from myself.
Went to newgrounds in the hope that maybe the new upgrade is not that bad after all but left after a few minutes. Why did they have to screw a good thing up when it was so good before?
Other recent disappointments: Lindsay Lohan. It seemed she was doing so good but now it appears she's going down hill again. For some reason I had a hope that the Cracken had seen the error of her ways based on her previous good behaviour. Oh well, I guess the courtroom will show the truth of these rumours I think it's on Feb 22 or 29, or maybe 15...
So of course the parasite came and my little speech did nothing to impress my point to her. Well at least she bought me chips though that means that I didn't really eat anything today but it's Friday so who cares. The estrella chips are really tasty. It's times like these that I dream of a Heaven of infinite abundance, but that kind of goes against the whole 'leave the earthly behind' concept of Heaven. Things would be so much more simpler if my earthly existence would come to an end.
Meanwhile I'll just watch TV tonight. Bones is on tonight so I'll probably have something to watch until 11 pm and then I'll probably go to bed.
I think it was yesterday that I yet again regretted that my writing was going nowhere.
Last summer I really hoped that I would be able to pull myself out of this whole but this winter has proved to me the uselessness of those fantasies and the overwhelming power of my sadness. END OF ENTRY.
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