Shall we start at the day I was born..
Well… I am still the mistake that my mum had. I was born on Monday 18th August 1997 (of course it had to be a Monday… the most boring day of the week), according to my mum it was a very easy birth unlike my older sister. Being the youngest was great and I was defiantly a daddy’s girl, (but then again my older sister was a mummy’s girl… explains a lot). I don’t remember much from when I was so young… but then again who really does. I have been told a lot of stories about my mum and dads relationship… but its hard to believe when you are unable to get answers from the person who knows it all. Believe me I have tired asking my dad but all he knows how to say is “you need to ask your mum, its up to her to tell you”, which find that’s ok I understand… Ok maybe I am a little annoyed now, but I have two great points to why its not fair that I don’t know the reason my mum and dad got divorce…
First reason.. My older sister knows because of my big mouthed nana, who hates me (strong word I know but I will come to that part soon).
Second reason.. No one seems to want me to know the reason.
Well… we will jump forward to 21st December 2016, when my dad has came over to visit myself and my older sister, my dad and myself got talking in the car and I finally managed after about three years of trying to get the reason out of my dad.... well what can I say, I did not expect that!
That was hard for me to hear what my dad had to say about why they got divorce, but i realised it was for the best. I remember my dad said to me in the car that day, “Ok you want to know the reason, I will tell you. Your mum cheated on me with another man, but this was because she was young and didn’t mean to hurt me”. My father is such a strong man, because what he said to me next in the car that day will stick with me forever and it broke my heart to hear it, he said to me as he says in his soft calm voice as always,”the worst thing of all that your mum did, was she asked me to help you get move country, but of course I wouldn’t say no, you two are my girls and I love you both so much. When I helping your mum pack everything away and get rid of a few things, it seemed to be that everything i ever bought her for Christmas, birthday or any other holiday she asked me to put in it the bin.” My dad said that he felt so low that that she made him feel like the relationship wasn’t worth it but then he always remembers he has me and my sister.
I never thought this story could get any worse till my dad said this last thing, “I asked your mum to come with me to my grannys funeral, but she said no because it was the dad that you guys were moving country. So that day is a day I can never forget because I had to say goodbye to my granny but also to my two beautiful girls!”
Every day I miss my dad, the divorce was easy at the start because I was only two. I got to see my dad every other weekend, but that slowly changed 10 years ago, I was 10 years old when my dad told me he got a new job in America. So it went from seeing him every other weekend to two weeks a year, a week in the summer and a week in the Christmas.... but at least I still had him in my life.
Yeah, I know not too bad so far… this is just the being of a lot more surprises to come.
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