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I’m currently with Josh and I’ve been somewhat mentioning the idea of breaking up (look at my last entry) but I don’t think he’s going for it. I feel a little guilty because I’m snap chatting Gabe and if Josh knew he would be so super pissed off. I don’t even know why I’m doing it. He texted me a few days ago but we stopped because I told him I still had a boyfriend but he snap chatted me and we’ve been snap chatting pretty much every day since. He makes me somehow want to be single because he shows me how being single is fun and I can be flirty and it doesn’t really matter. But I keep remember that I’m NOT single. But these last few days I’ve been trying to look pretty and post more on snapchat so that Gabe can see it (He usually snaps me after I post something… hm) and so I’ve been posting more selfies. I oddly feel more confident… and that scares me because I started becoming more confident with myself while Josh and i were broken up. But when we got back together I went back to my boring self. I guess that’s why I keep snap chatting Gabe but it feels wrong. But i dont want to stop.. Im not sure because its not anything extremely bad and I’m sure Gabe is talking to multiple girls because that’s the type of guy he is. I wouldn’t end my relationship because of Gabe. But it sort of feels like cheating. I’m just going to go with the flow.