Ever since January I’ve been fighting a pretty big bout of depression. Knowing it is the orange haired Cheeto that is currently running our country didn’t really help me lift out of it though.
I went into the doctor last month to discuss possible medications to help with my obesity. While doing the usual questionnaire, she asked me how I was feeling and I burst into tears.
To make a long story short, she prescribed me Contrave. It’s half appetite suppressant and half an anti depressant. The side effects are pretty awful the first month, and I have to take dramamine to get through the nausea and dizziness . I’ve lost four pounds, though.
But this week, a month in, I found a spark of myself. Last night Tabi and Dani came over to help me get started on a beading/crystal project. I told her that I had all the stuff, but no urge to start, and that I was overwhelmed by it all. So she came over, sat down, and rocked out a lovely suncatcher. Now it’s begun, and I think I can continue.
Today, I started planning for a Spring Vacation with my other daughter Sabrina, and her fiancee Monica. And then. This evening. I was sitting here on the couch, watching the Cheeto threatening to blow a country off of our planet. And instead of sitting here, I got up took a walk.
The lovely smells of fall reminded me that this was my first pleasure walk all year. Then I got teary eyed realizing I missed the smells of walking with the lilacs in the spring, and the roses in summer. Months of my life gone, because of a black cloud of depression that I couldn’t fight myself.
So in short....if you CAN’T dig yourself out on your own. Get help. Better living through pharmaceuticals!
Happy to feel better, and looking forward to getting my spark back, instead of just going through the motions. Keep your fingers crossed!
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