30 in Contusions.
- Sept. 13, 2017, 5:40 p.m.
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And I have no idea what I am doing.
I’ve spent my whole life chasing a dream of “really living”, and I did so much of that in my 20s. But maybe achieving my goal scared me? Or rather I reached a ceiling and now I’m just jaded.
Is it weird that I’ve already accomplished everything I thought I wanted? And now I’m terrified to set a new goal for myself? I live in fear of everything. Fear of people, fear of going outside, fear of rejection, conversation, isolation, crowds, loud noises, silence…
Fuck.
I just feel so fuuucked.
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J.E. ⋅ September 13, 2017
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