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We filed for divorce this past week, it was and will hopefully be amicable.
I’m tired, frustrated and can’t get my head into life. Which sucks because I have school and tests, and reports, and so much I NEED to be doing but all I can do is be numb.
I have my kids this weekend and I am trying to be with them…in the moment. While at the same time I am thinking of school work that I need to be doing and feeling things I don’t want to feel.
We’re getting divorced because there are many things that were said and done that have hurt both of us. And as much as you try or pretend to try and get over it or through it…sometimes you just can’t.
Sometimes the sorrys are a little to late and don’t mean anything to your broken heart. Sometimes the repetition of things I promise I will do are word for word and start to mean nothing but empty words. Sometimes you can’t get past the feelings of not wanting to be there, no matter how hard you try.