I'm really liking this new assertive side to myself. (My old self was probably the most passive human being on the planet) Last night I actually spoke up about an issue I had with something relatively minor that happened, but it made me feel awkward... the old me would've just ignored it, and than thought about it all night, and would've made myself feel worse by thinking about it and how much it irratated me & not doing anything about it.. just replaying things in my head. New trying to be assertive me, only stewed on it for about a half an hour when I decided to text message my sister. Something I probably never would've done. Easy as that there was an explanation for what happened, there was no dramatic confrontation.. simply me letting her know I felt awkward and requested that she let me know if advance if this kind of thing was going to happen again. She replied nicely, totally understanding my situation and agreed to my request. It wasn't a big thing... but damn I feel good. It's the little things that count.
I got some more replies to my big post on facebook the other day, I still continued to be overwhelmed ( in a good way) over the responses that I have received. Especially who some of the responses are from. yesterday a male acquaintance of mine, who i haven't seen over a year, pm'd me and offered thanks for writing, and how he was envious over my courage, and that my post really made him relate and put some things in perspective for him. I cried.. I never realized that what I was doing would have such an impact. It kind of still blows my mind.
Also I'm really loving that it's my 3rd consecutive day writing here. Go me. I really enjoy this place, and all you lovely people that occupy it :) Have a great day!
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