Run Me Like a River in All of Me

I love Bishop Briggs. Can I post videos hereZ? [enter link description here]

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The vocals, the lyrical genius, the…boom…shut your mouth and run me like a river… love…

I am unabashedly obsessed.

I thought I would write an entry as I am in a better place today. I am aware that I will feel worse again, then better again…that’s just the way this life goes.

Anyway, Happy August! I am going to Charlotte on the 9th to try on bridesmaid dresses. I feel excited and selfishly nervous about it. I am excited about the bigger picture- to be part of my childhood friend’s wedding is an honor I am so insanely happy about. I am selfishly hung up on the part about :” I was supposed to lose weight.” My goal was to lose weight before I went to try on dresses. I really am trying. I just need to try harder. I can always try harder. I can always try again. I have been meal-planning. I have been working out- either with my own workout or with pole class- every day. I do yoga on Sundays, also. I know, in spite of no real visible progress, I am more healthy than before. I can feel the progress from the exercise and healthy eating. I feel the progress in my confidence, which is honestly invaluable to me. I tend to fluctuate between 175 and 180.

Anyway, it will be wonderful to go to Charlotte. We are going to Carrowinds, an amusement park there. We also plan to go uptown to a few bars/ clubs, and get all dressed up. I have not dressed up to go out since, like, my 30th birthday LOL. I will probably wear the same little black dress I wore that night. Ha. I’m super excited.