Back on my upswing! in A New Beginning

Ever since I wrote my depressing little entry about how depressing I find taking lots of pills to be, I have been feeling very much more chipper! Mind you, I’m still taking lots of tylenol, but that just is what it is. If we have any sense, and if we want to go out and really LIVE our lives as much as possible, then we do what we need to do, in order to be able to do that. As one of my PB friends commented, we take pain meds so that we can get stuff done. And if taking them makes it SO we can do our stuff, than that’s GREAT. People ought to not look gift horses in their mouths! I have been having a fine week now that it’s underway! An hour or so after I posted the sad little entry, I (lolling on the couch as I was), just decided, “Hey! I have things I could be doing! I need to get my ass up off this couch and start doing them!”

I think what separates temporary dejection or “blues” from actual clinical depression is this ability to tell oneself to get up and do things, and having enough will left to care about doing that. I have lived through a fairly long bout of severe clinical depression, many many years ago. I barely had enough will to drag myself from bed and do a damn thing. I didn’t hardly even care. I had an infant at the time and I knew she couldn’t feed herself, and that is the ONLY reason I dragged myself from the bed. I did, however, realize that this was not the way I used to be. I realized it was not the way I wanted to be. So I could also drag myself to look for help with getting over the depression. But that was MY WILL. It sure wasn’t the result of anybody advising me “hey, buck up!” or any of the other stupid things sick people get told by other people who haven’t got a clue!

I finished that long book I was reading, and read another book....a really short one....and now I’m reading a Mitch Albom book; I can’t remember the title right off, but I like his books and am most surely going to finish it, which will make F-O-U-R for this summer! :o) There is also a movie I want to go to the cinema to see....”Ghost Story”....but so far it’s not scheduled at our two nearest theaters. I am not sure if either of my sisters would wanna see it, but I wouldn’t mind going by myself some afternoon. I hope it comes here before I go back to work! Tuesday matinees are just five bucks, and popcorn is five bucks! :o)

(continued on Wednesday) It has gotten COOLER here at last!!!!! Today it didn’t even hit 80 degrees! My sister Sandy and I went walking at Prime Hook Wildlife Refuge, just off the Delaware Bay. Gee, I could’ve kicked myself for not taking my camera! But Sis wouldn’t decide where she wanted to go until we were on our way there! I thought she’d pick the ocean beach, and I didn’t feel like wearing my camera around my neck on a long seashore walk. It gets heavy, and really....once you’ve taken a few photos of the waves on a given day, you don’t feel a need to take more. At least I don’t! I told Joe that for Christmas I’d like a small pocket-size camera too, for times when I’m not feelin’ taking my super-good one. (No, we don’t have smartphones and I’m not interested in a darn camera phone.)

Shoot, it’s time for supper. I have already been at this entry for days, so instead of saving it I’m going to post it now!