Still Friends! Yaaaaay! in A New Beginning

In my last entry I wrote about how my sister Carol and I had had words, and I had blabbed something that was very true, but that she did not want to hear.

Years ago, I would have run and just kept on running after an incident like that. I never was afraid to say things to people really, but I guess I was afraid of angry reactions, so my tactic was like that of a rattlesnake....to strike fast and withdraw quickly. Oh, and of course in a big way that DID mean I was pretty much afraid to say things to people. I didn’t like making people angry. So I only spoke up (saying the kind of things people don’t like hearing) if things got extreeeeeeemely bad. I took a lot of abuse on various jobs because I wouldn’t speak up for myself. Within my family, I certainly never had any problem speaking up to my parents, to Joe, or the kids!! But to my siblings, yes, I never really could. I guess because they were all so very much older than me, I always felt like they were “the grown-ups” and I was the kid, but it’s odd how I never had any trouble telling Mom or Dad exactly what I thought! They didn’t beat me, but they weren’t softies either!

Oh well, anyhow, where I’m going with this is, I phoned Carol yesterday morning and oh how surprised I was when she answered the phone sounding even more cheery than usual! I was so, so, so, so very happy! Because despite some of her ways (which she rarely shows to ME, I just hear about them), I love her so much.

This morning I’m going over to Carol’s and help her take a bunch of books she wants to get rid of, to Goodwill. I figure, we will have lunch after we drop the books off. I also need to stop at the Walmart. I will NOT offer to buy both our lunches!!!!! Not now that she’s revealed to me that it makes her feel like a charity case!!!! ;o) We can both just get our own!

Sister Sandy, I have given up on for this week. Last week I asked her about going to the beach or ANYWHERE she might enjoy going. All we did was lunch one day, which was fine. I invited her over for supper on Monday; she said no. I invited her to go to some July 4th goings-on with us; she said no. I said that we could go to the beach on Wednesday if she wanted; she said no. Maybe I’m being a pest! Hell, I dunno. I’m not offended by it; I just am not going to try again until next week!

Meanwhile, gee, with Sandy never wanting to do much and Guinness never wanting me to lie down for very long, I am being amazingly productive at home these days! Heck, I might have one of those showcase homes by the end of summer! :oD !! I have been cleaning things that I have put off cleaning for....well let’s just say “for a damn long time”! And I started reading another book this morning, too....”The Invention of Wings” by Sue Monk Kidd. My starting to read this came about in a funny (kinda!) way. See, we got our Readers’ Digest for the month quite awhile back, and it seems that my subscription to Time Magazine has run out. (I must renew it!) So there’s nothing new to read in the bathroom! Normally that is just something Joe does, but this morning I felt a need for something to read there. So, wrapping my towel around me because the shades were open), I strode out here, muttering, “There must be SOMETHING suitable to read in this house!” (We have shelves full of books that don’t strike me as suitable at the moment.) The first book I plucked off the bookshelf was this one. I stared at it for a moment, thinking, “Well how long has THIS been there?! I really like Sue Monk Kidd!” and now I’m happy I found it!