Grief... in the day

losing my sister has been so hard on me..I cant wrap my mind around the fact that
she is not here anymore..I cant talk to her listen to her advice…and know she prayed for us
everyday..grief is so hard it takes your breath and you feel like you pray more than your breath......I find myself holding my breath like I forgot how to breath.....everyday I know I need God to get through this year .......