Unemployed in Random

I was laid off today. My last day will be July 15th, then two months of severance, then…?

I was trying to keep it a secret, but I was already looking for a new job. Not because I had any idea this would be coming, but because I was unhappy with my opportunities.

I’ve been given the opportunity to transfer within my company, but I would rather just take the severance and get a new job. If I have to, I will go work for my former company. That job is better than no job. But not much. I have a few other leads in the works.

I don’t know how this happened. I am very good at what I do. I am smart and driven. But I am not social enough, and I’m sure that was a factor. I’m not as well liked as everyone else. Also I made the mistake of telling my boss I wanted to switch to a different career a couple months ago. I can’t say for sure if that was a factor, but I’m having a hard time believing it wasn’t.

In the end…probably better me than anyone else. I was already on my way out the door. Might as well take my severance in the meantime. It’s only two months of it, but it’s better than nothing. It helps, I guess.

The hardest part is having to act like it’s not affecting me in front of C. I have to put on a brave face in front of him and pretend like I’m not worried. We have one income in this family. Of course I’m worried. I don’t have a support network to fall back on.

But that’s my own fault. It’s all my own fault, most likely.