Don't care right now in A New Journey
- June 1, 2017, 5:23 p.m.
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I am exhausted, NO I am just fed up with all this crap in this drama town I am living in. I am so ready to move on out of here like yesterday.
I have 8 more weeks to go and I am packing little things at a time.
I sold most of my furniture’s to a good friend of mine.
I sold:
=bed
=kitchen table
=my cowgirl dresser
=my western tv entertainment stand
=kitchen microwave stand
I will give chef my
=washer/dryers
=couches
=dresser for bug that is Rocket’s
=a tv
=some kitchen items
The only thing I am taking is my cloths and TV’s, laptop, computer and things I can’t live without!
BUT this past couple of weeks I have been just closing my curtains and not wanting to hang out with anyone lately only if I HAVE too. I am just tired of every one just need me for this and that. They all have NO clue of what they are in for once I leave. I know all the do is just use me and then not care for what I need when I need it the most.
All I do is just hide in my lounge chair and sit and watch TV or mostly Netflix, I ignore my phone all day or I read a book , I have literally read 3 books in the last month and that is a record for the last 5 years I have only read a book a year. That is how busy I had been the last many years.
I am just tired and my body is feeling it.
Yesterday I went to see my GYN DR for an annual check up and wow wow, how can do this to me.
I was told my last breast check up that was done 2 years ago, they never even tried to call me that there was a concern of a Fibrocystic Breast Disease (FBD), meaning that fibrocystic breast are not malignant (cancerous). SO now I have to get another breast exam. That I will do and I will for sure follow up on this. I was upset they never contacted me the last time, I still have the same phone number that is in file so whats up with that.
I just feel like I am falling apart and I am telling myself I won’t let this happen to me but I want a new start and I will make a huge change of things I do once I leave TEXAS!
BUT I have already gotten myself eating healthier I am no longer eating breads and anything fattening as I have to loose 40 lbs for my heart. I have that Dr appt next Thursday.
SO that means I have 8 more weeks to get things in order for a major change in my life!!
I am tired of hiding from people here, I am ready for some exciting new changes, I am so looking forwards to a new environment, I plan to get out and go to places that I have always wanted to go to, I will be able to go where my oldest brother ashes are buried in Wyoming, I am going to see my biological mom Horses in Cody, Wyoming, go join a Gym and work out, go to Montana and visit my oldest sister, go visit my youngest half sister and meet my twin nephews, OH I have a long bucket list to do before I decide to sit and do NOTHING!!
HA, I am just tired I guess.
I am ready for a major change!
DID ALREADY SAY THAT!!
Deleted user ⋅ June 01, 2017
You are doing well when it comes to getting ready for your move. You really have a good handle on things. You will be so much happier when you have a fresh start. Your new life sounds like it's going to be grand. As far as hiding out from people, well look at it this way. You are reading and reading is good. Watching tv is a fun thing to do too. Sometimes I like to hide out from people. Sometimes we just need to be alone.