New to Prosebox in Happening to life

I came a long way since I started online journaling. I first started writing online when I was 22... I just had my baby boy, Xavier, and life was hard... I was in a difficult relationship, where verbal (and sometimes physical) abuse was a daily culprit for me. I felt strange at first, writing in a place where people could 'read' me, but... I didn't have a face... No-one knew me, and it felt safe. Then, I started getting attached to the people on there, and I allowed them into my world, in a way other people can't. I still have friends from back then. That was at my dear diary, who closed, from one day to the next, without warning. The transition, from there to open diary was hard for me... I tried feeling "at home" there, but daily writings from me became a thing of the past. I however did continue journaling, and there I documented a few more years of my movemented life; I met the love of my life, we built a family together, I had 2 more children, we moved 3 times, went to Mexico to visit his family... I grew as a mom, as a wife "to be" (still not married), as a person... I'm 30 now... Some of the people I know from journal land are people I've known for almost 10 years (say what??) Just seems unreal. Time flies... I also started my youtube channel last year, that's my new "baby"... I still don't really know where I'm going or what my purpose is on there... But what I do know is that I like making videos of my family, and I like to keep them recorded... Somewhere... It makes me feel like a part of me is somewhere... And that maybe one day my grandchildren's grandchildren can see those... And learn to get to know me when I'll be gone. I know that I have a little bit of a fatalistic view of things, but I can't help but be utterly conscious of my mortality, of all of our mortality, seems like since I have kids, all I can think of is of their life, of how precious and fragile it is... And of how I want them to live a long, full, healthy and beautiful one... and of how I want to be alive to witness it. I did a lot of stupid things when i was young... a lot of stupid things that could've killed me, but here I am, witnessing the miracle of life and I feel so grateful for it, I feel like I owe all of this happiness to God, and I want to make him proud of me. So, I try to honor what he has given me and treat it well, take care of it, help it grow. Here's my latest video on youtube, it's a glimpse of our trip to Mexico, I decided I was going to combine my two hobbies (filming and journaling), so you could have a better view I guess of who I am. Link to the video (just copy and paste)