Hot and Cold! in A New Beginning

Wow, until a couple days ago, it was so warm that I was actually, in February, coming home from work and turning the AC on! Everyone’s spring flowers are opened up, and even some of the flowering trees are in blossom down here in Delaware! It has been not even like March (while it was still February!), but like April! But a few days ago, winter returned. It returned on March 1st! That day started out warm and ended up cold! And this afternoon I am sitting here in jeans and a sweatshirt, with my heater on. The whole weekend is supposed to be cold, but right now that is alright with me; all that matters to me is that IT IS THE WEEKEND!!

This past week we changed positions at work, like we do on the first of every month. I was going to be Main Server on Line Two, but turns out, someone is out so I’m still on my cash register on Line Three. Yaaaaay! But it’s a sad reason my co-worker, Dee, is out. Her son, who was 25 years old, was shot and killed! Dee has three adult kids I think; one of them is her pride and joy and the others have been problematic for her. This young man was one of the problematic ones. I don’t imagine it lessens a mother’s grieving any. Probably if a problematic child dies or is killed, part of the parents’ grief includes wondering “What might I have done differently so this wouldn’t have happened?” It just seems like a natural way for one’s mind to go, even though sometimes kids turn into troubled adults even though the parents did the best they could. I’m very sorry for Dee. We are all sending a big fruit basket.

Another co-worker, Sheila, felt hurt that so much talk about “What can we do for Dee?” was going on, when last year, when Sheila lost TWO loved ones (a brother and a sister, both very close to her) in a car accident, nothing was done at all by the group, and only a couple of us sent cards. Sheila never says the words “I feel hurt”....she just complains....but I know that it’s because her feelings were hurt. Some people just don’t ever want to admit that, I guess. I understand how she feels. Something more should have been done for her, too. It shouldn’t matter “Who” it is; when a co-workers loses a loved one (or two!), the same kind of care should be shown. Sheila told me she wasn’t going to chip in for the fruit basket, but she would send Dee a card, because that is what Dee did for her when she lost her siblings. I contributed to the fruit basket but I want to get a card too.

People behave in different ways when their feelings are hurt. Some people act like they’re angry. Some people really DO act “hurt”....which to me means, they cry or act sad. I don’t really show it at all. I think that “hurt feelings” might be the only emotion that I keep inside and don’t let anyone see. I think that the best way to be, though, is to actually show that you feel hurt! Because maybe if others KNEW that what they said or did was hurtful, they’d try to do better. I think that sometimes when people hurt other people’s feelings, they really don’t mean to. They just don’t THINK. Like my co-workers who have spent so much time talking about “What can we do for Dee?” Well, Dee is a very happy, friendly person and a few of them are very good friends with her and sometimes see her outside of work. Sheila is often out-of-sorts with people and she doesn’t see any of them outside of work. I don’t think anyone was thinking, “We want to do something more for Dee than we did for Sheila” at all. But it’s just natural to think along the lines of doing MORE, when a person is your close friend.

But yea....it’s also natural to feel slighted, hurt, or even angry when we’re treated less well than someone else is treated, I know. It’s happened to me A LOT in my life....and most of those times I think the reasoning behind it was, “Linda is strong (or whatever); she doesn’t want or need a big to-do made over her or what she did!”

I gotta say....I AM strong, mature, and all that, but dammit, I would not mind having a great big hoop-ti-do made over me every once in awhile! :o)

Anyhow, I started this many hours ago, but I had to leave it so that Joe and I could go up to Dover AFB to do our big grocery shopping. We went, and bought what we needed, and I’m finally here again. I’m so glad this is Friday!!!! I’m tired from the long day, and looking forward to bed and to NOT having to get up and go to work tomorrow! We will get up around 7, though. Joey is going to stop by to borrow my car. He is taking a class up at Polytech, something required for his job, and with his car being so unreliable he asked to borrow mine, or Joe’s truck, to get up there. He’ll have time to stop in for coffee, I reckon.

The exciting news for Joey is that, after months of looking, he and Stephanie have finally found a place they can afford to move into TOGETHER. :o) It is close-by and close to where they both work. It’s a trailer with a fenced-in back yard. Joey said it’s a bit of a fixer-upper, but they are sooooooooo excited to be able to move in soon. :o) He said he might have ANOTHER surprise for us too, but he is making us wait til he sees us to tell us what it is! So I am dying of curiosity, of course! But we are thinking, the surprise will be that he and Stephanie are getting married fairly soon. :o)

G’night!