Confusion~ in MY HOME AWAY FROM HOME ~

You know, my blog is kinda like my personal counselor. Usually things seem not so bad when I put it on paper. Its beautiful out today. I was getting SO TIRED of Winter, ready for Spring. I’m sure the cold days aren’t completely over as its still January after all. However its a day of confusion, like spiderwebs in my head. I couldn’t decide what category I wanted to put this as I want to talk about the last 2 months, which included my doggie, flat tires, lack of $$, illness and worry. So this entry will include remarks about Fibro, my dog, my worries, health and this big ball of confusion floating around in my head.
First of all, Cooper & I are adjusting the best we can with me leaving him at night. I feel soooo terrible when I have to go and his sad face makes it so much worse. So I try to make up for it the days when I’m not working. My neighbor says he cries early in the morning, I guess when he wakes up & I’m not back yet. But I have to do it :(
I am having some really bad stomach issues lately. First I went to the Dr a few weeks ago with a UTI & he gave me some antibiotics that I haven’t used before. My body did not like them. Around the 3rd day I started hurting all over, got the chills, my mouth broke out and my eyes got so blurry I could barely see. I stopped taking them myself. I know your not suppose to do that, but the side affects made me feel worse then the symptoms did. Then I saw something on FB that this particular medicine was making lots of ppl sick. So now the UTI is almost gone, but now I have a sinus infection! Lordy lordy lol And there is a little knott right below my belly button that I haven’t mentioned to any Dr’s yet because I can’t afford to have any operations right now. It doesn’t hurt, just worries me cuz its there. And then yesterday, during the afternoon I had to go potty and I was SO constipated! Thought I might have to go to the ER at one point cuz it wouldn’t come out. I know.. TMI… sorry. But finally I did have a very painful bowl movement, but today I have lots of gas pains. Plus, I’m having irregular heartbeats, not painful, but makes me worry. I have an appointment with the counselor and the heart Dr both on Feb 20. So needless to say my heath is not so good right now.
And on top of that, my glasses need replacing badly but I can’t afford that either :( Just when I thought I was getting caught up, I had to get 4 new tires, so thats causing me 100 a month, but thankfully he is letting me pay it out. And I have to pay off the Tow way charges from when I got into Austin so that’s another 100 for the next 2 months. I’m still waiting for the form from my PT job so I can see if I will get anything back on my income tax. Whatever amt it is will be already spent. Sad
Thats part of my worries & stress. Plus all these deaths lately, has me worried too. I know it not up to me, but I’m not ready yet. I have lots of plans in my head but it’s up to God and time will tell. I am still planning to try to go to my Son’s house this summer, that’s my goal anyways.
Well, I started this before noon and here it is 9 pm. Got busy, had company come over and made chicken soup. Also watched lots of TV :)
Stay warm ..
Hugs Turtle~