The sun will rise and set regardless in I want someone who will kiss me like its the only thing keeping him alive.

This past summer was eye opening for me. My husband and I celebrated our 8 year wedding anniversary, by doing nothing. Like we have done for almost every anniversary. We have been a couple for 10 years.
I started a journey the end of summer. I started loosing weight. My daughter who is 5 is in a running club. She loves to run. She asked my to run her race with her and I couldn’t. Even though it was only .25 miles. At 230 lbs it just wasn’t happening. So I started walking. I want to be able to keep up with her. I have lost 55 lbs, and have asked for a divorce.
LIfe is incredibly short to live with someone who doesn’t want to experience life with you.
The person you are at 20 isn’t the person you are at 30. Thomas wont take no for an answer. He just keeps trying to save us. He is doing everything I have wanted to do for the last 5 years, but it doesn’t matter to me now. Ive tried but the feelings aren’t there for me anymore.
We’ve had a leak in our hall window for a couple of years now, in turn it had rotted out our floor. Things were falling threw that I would have to go out side, remove the skirting from the trailer, and reach under it to retrieve stuff. I had begged and bitched, ask nicely to get it fixed. His fixing it was to keep a towel in the window.
About a month after asking for a separation I went on a date. I told him of this date and magically the floor and window were fixed. By my NEIGHBOR! so frustrating.
I’ve been a member of prosebox for awhile now to read some of my favorites from opendiary. But now starting this new Journey for me I feel like I need to write. Toms still trying. its hard since we still live together, but I’ve been with Justin since Devils night.
Justin makes me feel alive again. He doesn’t meet anything on my check list for the “next” guy, but he makes me laugh.
He has some anxiety and other depression issues that I do. We fight a lot, but we are crazy for each other.