JAN 25 & 26 2017 in livestream

sent to Tab, regarding how the constant Trump-assault is fucking with our heads:

”LOVELOVELOVE confessions on a dancefloor. I USED TO RUN TO THAT SHIT!!! womp!womp! but lately for me its been ALLLL george michael ALLL THE TIME. i am so sad about him. i think he was sooper-fucked up and experienced a lot of guilt and fear about being gay when he was young. THANKS, RELIGION. gorgeous-george went through it, yo. and then, his mom croaked! AND his boyfriend croaked too! he was like, what… 25? but OMG SO TALENTED~ that voice, tabby! magnificent control and depth and effortless styling. almost makes me believe in god! LOLZ!!!! and its so “me’n’peter” i feel all swoony-nostalgic with the heady-young-love feels. it felt like a fever. i could not get enough of him (peter, not george!). or as peter likes to sing (off-key): “thaaaaaaanks for the mammaries…” like a corny-old-motherfucker. :D anyfuck. TRYING TO FIND SOME BALANCE TODAY!!! instead of constant thought loops of negativity - i’m distracting myself on - purpose! - like, FORCING MYSELF to do something creative. also - even though we’re firmly entrenched and-unlikely-to-break-free of this poverty and all its inherent hopelessness - the actual way i’m spending my time, doing something i love (art and music 4ever) is NOT a bad way to spend my time at all! i used to work 2 goddammed very-physical jobs while raising three kids. while peter was drinking. right, right. i hearby decree henceforth: i shall rest and do things I LIKE - all the things i never had time to do! SEE?!?!?!! different perspective! she said, (again) with a grimace and an eye roll. haaaaaaaaa!

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Jake & Me

Jake WED 18:14: Love you <3

Me THU 13:51: love YOU!!! been digging through the rubble and i just unearthed your and your siblingses’s school-pics through the years. DAMN! so cute, alla youse! so proud! i made that! HA! feeling a bit better - less crazed. whats new witchoo?

Jake THU 13:53: Yaaaaas you made us and did a good job tbh! Glad ur feeling less crazed.
I picked out paint colours with nick this week ~ I chose a soft greyish lilac colour for my room SO PRETTY. We move in on the 26th next month ~ posting an ad for my room tonight. Things are good tho Also got that raise at work and feeling less exploited ~ oh and i tried foie gras today.... fucking gross. Rich people are dumb ~ paying 200 bucks a kilo for a hunk of fatty liver that tastes like dirt.

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i need money for art supplies.
every. single. month. i don’t have enough money for food.
decisions, decisions.

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does anybody want to buy some medical cannabis-infused edibles?