All the Things (Nothing) in About

I feel like I have nothing to write about staying home- all the days kind of blur into walks and trips to Target and mom group meetings. But then when I think about coming here to write I feel too overwhelmed because there is EVERYTHING to write about and so I never write anything.

The election has really been weighing on me heavily, but I can’t get into that right now. It would consume my night.

So something I can tackle tonight…

My sweet, fat baby ate some carrots this evening. He has tasted lots of food- avocado was his first, baked sweet potato, gnawed on raw cucumber, carrot, broccoli, etc. But tonight was the first time we gave him a puree where he actually got anything down. I know everyone does rice cereal first, but we like to live on the edge, you know.

He has been staring at us eating for a while now. We are kind of doing a baby led weaning/traditional puree hybrid plan. We dipped the spoon then let him hold it himself. He stuffed it right into his mouth and seemed to like it! Haha!

Mama’s little fatty! He is just over 5 months and probably just over 18 lbs now. He laughs and giggles a lot, can roll both ways (but only back to front intentionally), and is really into his feet. He’s adorable and really sweet.

Nugz is still not a super great sleeper, but he’s doing better. He goes to bed around 7:30, wakes up to nurse sometime around 1 or 2, then goes back to sleep until about 5. Sometimes at 5 I can nurse him for a snooze button feed until 630 or so (he cuddles in bed with me), and sometimes he is just awake at 5 (ugh). I go to bed early so that I can at least get a few hours of consecutive sleep. We are working on putting him in his bed (pack and play in our room) awake instead of nursing/rocking him to sleep. It has been a bit of a process and has involved some fussing and crying, but he’s getting it. The last 3 nights, he has fussed for maybe 5-10 minutes before passing out. No actual crying. I am hoping that learning how to put himself to sleep will help with the nighttime wake up eventually. I mean, he is not calorie-deficient, I am pretty confident he can make it through the night without eating… If he doesn’t figure out his sleep by the time I go back to work, there might be some sleep training in his future because I have to function at work. He’s probably moving to his big boy crib after the holidays/travel etc. The new AAP recommendation is to keep baby in parents’ room for a year, but he is outgrowing the pack n play. He rolls around in his sleep. I like having him next to my side of the bed so I will miss him but it will be okay.

I am so grateful for this time off with him. I’m just living in la-la land with my sweet peanut, and going back to work in 2 months is going to be interesting. There’s been some work drama, I’ll write about that next.

Also, why do babies have so much shit? I am sitting in my messy living room. I wanted to not own ALL THE BABY THINGS. Guess how many effing baby carrying contraptions I own? FIVE!! 5!! Who even needs an Ergo, a Lillebaby, a K’tan, a Moby, and a wrap from Bhutan? Apparently I do.

I have a million things to write but we’ll stop there because I need to sleep. If you’re lucky I’ll upload pictures from my phone tomorrow.