Stupid in Important Things

I hate my neuro. I literally watched her look at the paper chart and pause until she found my name, then addressed me. What the fucking fuck, woman.

She again pulled up my child’s chart, (we are both under the same online thing) and I kept saying no no no, I’m not on x med or x med. Wrong chart!

I can’t imagine how many other patients she sees that she does this to. I know she’s busy as fuck with patients at three different clinics, but shit.

So she goes through everything, asks me if I’m still in pain all over and I’m telling her about the dishes and cups I keep breaking because of the weakness. Then I tell her I need her to do something, anything about the pain and she tells me to go to my GP and get a referral for a back doctor (she said this, not a spinal doctor or orthopedic, just a “back doctor”) and that, get this. The next thing she said is this:

”I Think You Have Fibromyalgia”

Then says to start Cymbalta or Lyrica (both interact with blood thinners, I took them both after my hip replacement) then looks and sees that I have no insurance.

”Well, let’s double your gabapentin and come back in 6 months.”

Um. Ok. Then she does the exam and is out of the room. Nothing said about what to do, nothing said about me not being able to feel the pin she used to stab my right foot. None of that.

I just stood there looking at her back like what the fuck now. When her nurse came back in, I just looked at her and burst out crying.

I asked her what do I do, where can I go, I hear horror stories about it, this makes sense as to why I’ve been in pain for a year and she hands me a tissue as I’m snotting all over the place and sat with me until I had my wits about me.

She suggested an organization to call to start for information. She also mentioned that there was no reason for the doctor to just duck and run (she was an hour behind in appointment time, but still) when a diagnosis like that comes along.

So now, this.

It’s common in people with lupus and although I don’t have lupus, I have lupus anticoagulant. 50/50 I can develop lupus, but apparently it’s this. What is the lesser of two evils?

So I’m about to eat 1000 mg of gabapentin and drunk text people.

How have YOU been?

Last updated September 27, 2016