My god is the sun. in Hello.

Listening to a LOT of Queens of the Stone Age as of late. Just recently rediscovered Like Clockwork, I’d forgotten just how amazing it is. It’s the album Josh wrote after he nearly died, it’s completely different to their usual stuff, a lot of it reminds me of Bowie. This is my current favourite track of theirs:

Yesterday after I wrote my entry, I went to the shop to buy a bottle of wine. Katie’s husband, Shaun, happened to be standing behind me in the queue. It’s the first time I’ve seen him since we found out about the cancer. We had a brief chat, I told him Anna was welcome to stay whenever she liked for as long as she liked. I asked him if he’d had a good birthday and he just looked really sad and said “I had a lovely day with my family, thank you.” I put my hand on his arm and told him to ring whenever he wanted a chat or needed me to do anything, and he pulled me into a hug. We’d reached the till by that point, so the poor assistant looked all awkward as we stood there hugging!
I kind of get what he’s going through. When John was in hospital after he had his brain haemorrhage, all he was concerned about was getting better…as an outsider looking in, all I could do was be there, then go home with my feelings, my mind working overtime. I bet Shaun feels the same. But he’s always been pretty good at talking about his feelings, especially to his mum, which I’m glad about. He’d tell us exactly how he was feeling.

Katie’s scan is tomorrow. Anna is spending the night with us.

I told my boss at work the situation. I mean, I know I don’t have to, but I felt better having it in the open. Dawn is lovely, she’s a good friend as well as a boss, so I couldn’t really keep it from her. I happened to catch her on her own in our little stockroom, I’d just run up to put something away, so I was out of breath as I was telling her. It probably won’t affect my work at all, but on the off chance that I need to take time off to have Anna or even if John needs be a marrow donor, it’s good to have a backup plan.

Have I mentioned Rob is back from uni? He was going to stay here for five weeks, he has exams in May. But the place where he works have been really crap with giving him shifts, so he’s decided to go back after just three weeks.

We all went out for dinner tonight. It was nice, I had linguine marinara. Afterwards, John wanted to go see Katie with the kids, but I’m still coughing up a lung and decided to come home. She can’t get sick so soon before her chemo. Not sure when I’m going to see her now, or even if I will see her before her chemo starts.
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Last updated April 04, 2016