and it's Easter.... in Dana Bell

Hello again. I come and go as I please but this time I promise I’m going to write more often. My reason for not writing as often as I’d like is simply because I had to do it on my phone. My husband stole the laptop (and desktop) for work a while back and we just didn’t replace them. We didn’t really have a need for one at the house since we both carry around our iPhones like they’re a part of our family. Anyways, I bought a laptop a few days ago. This one I’m guarding with my life. Writing will become easy again and hopefully a habit.
I miss writing even if most of the entries are mundane. I was disappointed when OD shut down and quit writing. I know it sounds silly but I grieved. I was used to writing everyday. I looked forward to it in a way. It was therapy. I still keep in touch with a few people but I feel like I lost a group of people I became to know and love reading.
Let’s not get all sappy here. The point is, I’m back. Hopefully I can keep writing and pick up some new friends along the way.
Overall, I guess you could say I’m okay. Life isn’t kicking my ass like it was a year ago. I still struggle with anxiety and depression but I think the worst of it has come and gone. I know it’s something I’ll have to deal with for the rest of my life. I’m learning how to deal with it. In other words, I have tools in my toolbox that I didn’t have before. Somedays it’s overwhelming but I have a wonderful family that loves and supports me even when I’m not at my best.
Most of my stress comes from being a stay at home mom. There. I said it. It’s not easy. It’s lonely. My daughter bypassed the terrible twos and is in the threenager stage. It makes me want to pull out all my hair and scream. She knows how to manipulate and push my buttons. God, she’s just like me when I was her age. My mother always warned me I’d have a child just like me someday.
Thinking of going back to work for a couple days a week (although I’ve been thinking about it for 2 years now....) I just need to pull the trigger.
Gotta run. Have an Easter dinner to go to. Looking forward to an afternoon spent with the ones I love most. (and eating a lot....)