At about 10am today, March 8, 2016 the operation to remove my breasts from my body will begin. I have signed up for this because I am a BRCA2 mutation carrier and also because I was found to have DCIS this summer.
My lumpectomy and breast lift/reduction happened in October. I have healed since then and today the vast majority of my breast tissue will be removed. The surrounding skin and the nipples will (hopefully) remain. The tissue expanders will go in.
I am doing this surgery to drastically lower my future chances of getting breast cancer and to avoid any potential distress on myself and my family. I want to be healthy for my son and my husband and for myself. I want be focused on them and on so many beautiful things in life and not obsessing and living my life around not getting breast cancer. I have had enough.
I am just four months shy of 40. To have this procedure tomorrow has been the most difficult decision I have ever made. I am going in with heavy heart and had I not been in the place where I am today I may not have had made such a decision. But I still do believe that it is the best decision for me today. I pray that I will still will be able to bear another child after this operation, despite of my age.
I know that I will miss the warmth and softness of my breasts. The memories of me nursing Jason are incredible and I am so thankful for the experience. I am also greateful for their amazing sexuality and for all the times they came handy (no pun) in the bedroom.
I hope that the operation is a success tomorrow. I hope for the side effects on the rest of my body are minimal. I hope for my nipples and skin to survive and for the pathology report to come back benign. I know that there will be pain and discomfort but I am ready to bear it and will accept and learn to live with my new body.
I hope that God is with me tomorrow as I go through it.
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