Weekends. in The Crimson Permanent Assurance

Not gonna lie, I kinda live for the days on the weekend, but not just the days, the nights, after the kids have gone to bed, and I can pour the vodka out and numb everything I don't want to feel. Which is so much these days. My stomach hurts on the weekends from drinking but it's worth the price for just a few moments, an hour of relief. Not thinking about all of the many things that eat me alive with anxiety. It's not recreational any more, it's just medicinal.