Bumping along in It's a Suhaila!

It’s been almost two weeks since I’ve written in here now, so I think it’s about time I update.

College is now broken up for half term. That mans I have a week of lie-ins (yay!) but I also have holiday homework (boo).

I met with my college tutor on Friday afternoon to discuss how I would approach my final few months - Jasmine is growing and at five and a half months she is noticeable now. I won’t deny that I am starting to get tired more lately, but I really want to stay at college until the Easter break so I get almost everything I need to know. My college tutor seems fine with that, and she said if at any time I feel it’s getting too much she’ll see about getting the stuff sent to me at home, after all it’s close to the end now so it makes sense for me to carry on.

Wednesday was half day at college so after lunch I went back to Physics Boy’s house, and as we had the place to ourselves.... we did and it was oh so beautiful. Afterwards he put his hand on Jasmine-bump and asked if she was okay. Aww. It’s then I said… “I wish she was yours.” And I started to cry a bit because I realised that the person I love right now is not the father of my little girl.

And I am no longer going to call him Physics Boy because I think that’s almost insulting him when I should be using his proper name. So as I cried a little he held me, I just whispered “I love you Daniel.”

We made love a second time before I went hime, but I am having mixed feelings. Yes, I am in love with him, but I am worried about Jasmine. Will he accept her? I know they aren’t related but… it’ll be difficult. I need that talk with him again I think.

Pizza time!