#1 in Lost in my thoughts

Everything seems to be crashing around me and there’s no way out.
I’m married for a little over a year with a man who I love very deeply but I feel he only married me to settle down. I came into the relationship with a son from an abusive man from 2007. We had our own baby this past year in August.
When we started dating we decided to stop having sex to build our relationship on more than just sex. When we got married we had sex constantly and now since having our second baby, he hardly even holds me close. Yes I’m still working off the baby weight but I need him to let me know he needs me.
I used to be majorly overweight…about 260 on a 4‘10” frame. I lost the weight and got down to about 120 but unfortunately I have TONS of loose skin so of course looking in the mirror, my mind calls it fat. I’ve never been one to think I was pretty, in fact, I’ve always felt I was ugly....until I met my husband. He would constantly tell me I was beautiful but that’s even seemed to stop.
I didn’t come here with the intention of bashing my husband but it seems as if that’s what is happening.
Over the course of the day I’ve eaten maybe 400 calories, and plan on going to bed soon.
I don’t feel like I’m good enough for my kids, my husband, my parents, my siblings, anyone. Like I said, everything seems to be crashing around me and there’s no way out.