I woke up this morning, late. Ive been working myself like a dog these past few weeks between both jobs. 80 hours a week. Im exhausted. But when i overdo it like this....how do i explain?
i dont know if its the lack of seratonin in my brain, or what the hell ever, but i always feel closer to the “other side”
yeah im one of those woo woo woooooos that believes in that stuff. Anyway, it could be seratonin, or a coping mechanism, but it seems like whenever I am super exhausted like this and i lay my head down at night to go to sleep i dont really truly sleep…or maybe my REM cycle is that deep that i start to see and hear and truly know what i need to know.
lately, that has been my dad and aunt fern. I mean, seeing the two of them together is just…so peaceful. its like were in new brunswick in nj, at the animal park? i used to LOVE going there as a kid, and oddly enough both of them have taken me there. Were just sitting around outside, shooting the breeze. Theyre asking me about my life, and about Joe and acting like were going to see each other again soon. I mean really, what is one human life in the life of an eternal being? a blink of an eye....but still. The dream is so vivid....so real.
do you guys think its possible they really ARE coming to visit me? or am i just slightly off my rocker? i dont know....i hope its the first option. I hope theyre really coming to check on me and theyre hanging out in heaven together…i would hope thats the case anyway.
so today I am doing work for denise while im at my first job. Better to do it and get it done. Its just emailing but now she wants to talk about adding cold calling to the menu. I told her im not truly comfortable with that....but thats just me. I dont like it at all. im not a good sales person unless its peer pressure for someone to smoke something with me LOL.
speaking of greenery, ive TOTALLY been smoking on the regular man. I cant help it. Ever since i got a little bit i cant let it go. Its so nice to just BE when im stoned. I play with joe and i crawl around, my knees and back dont hurt. im more inclined to be silly. now i get what my dad did all those years man.
i still remember the time he got stuck in a mcdonalds tube and had to get pulled out by his feet. Ive never laughed so hard im my life at that point. I just miss that old man so much.
anyway, point being my old man was a stoner and he wouldve done anything to make me laugh and stuff. and i miss that guy.
i hope you all have a blessed day!!
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