So we got to my moms’ place earlier today. It’s been a busy day so far already and it’s still early.
The flight was fine, except for the whole thing with having a baby on my lap and two young kids that can’t sit still. Jayson is a good help though since he knows I can’t do much with a baby in my arms. Still better than buying a 5th plane ticket though.
I know Jayson just wanted to fall asleep on the plane since he worked last night, and I feel bad that he really couldn’t do that.
Megan picked us up at the airport. On the drive to moms’ place she told us that Lauren wasn’t with her because she was spending Thanksgiving with her own family. I responded that it was too bad because I like Lauren and I haven’t seen her in a while. Then Megan revealed that things were really bad in their marriage. She said they were working through some problems and that she expects they will stay together, but she said it isn’t easy. A long pause and then she said that they haven’t had sex in more than two years.
I told her we should talk more about it later. It was awkward for her to mention their sex life with my three kids in the car.
When the gate opened to my moms’ community, there was a naked man standing at the booth. I had been so concerned with whether or not my moms would wear clothes during our visit, I had forgotten all about the fact that the whole community was nudist and there would be naked people everywhere.
We passed several more naked people while driving up to the house, and of course my girls both noticed. My oldest pointed out that mommy and daddy used to walk around naked too, and I felt really uncomfortable. Megan told me to relax since there was nothing I could do about it. She’s right.
I asked her if mom and Cheryl had been wearing clothes, and she said no, but they were going to wear them while I was there. I was hoping she was right.
We got there and everyone was dressed, and that made me happy. Everyone was excited to see the kids, and there were hugs all around. Rachel and Guy were already there. The last time I talked to Rachel was about a week ago and we’d had a really ugly fight on the phone. She hugged me and whispered in my ear that we should go somewhere and talk so things wouldn’t be weird between us.
So after we settled, Jayson took a nap, and I went out to the pool area with Rachel. She looked great in this skimpy bikini and I felt really fat in my one-piece. We got into the hot tub and talked for a long time. Our relationship is weird. I love her more than anything and she’s really honestly my best friend, but we seem to always be fighting about something. And as soon as we resolve one argument we find something else to fight about.
I keep going back and forth between wanting to move to CA to be near her and thinking that maybe some distance between us is a good thing.
I went back into the bedroom with the plan to masturbate. Mostly as stress relief. But Jayson was just waking up so I got into bed and we had sex. First time in a while we could have sex without worrying about where the kids were. Afterward, we laid in bed and talked a bit about Megan and Lauren and how our relationship is still injured but getting better.
Three therapist visits per week (twice to mine and once to our relationship therapist) I think is a pretty good sign that I’m committed to making it work.
We’re leaving Saturday, and I have a feeling it’s going to be nonstop activity between now and then.
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