I feel like writing, so here it is in Day by day

We are now in November. We have just had Halloween and we were in Wales for this, no children called for trick or treat, so a bowl full of treat are sitting in my kitchen forlornly. There did seem to be lots of Halloween parties around, so maybe that’s were all the children were, as there are many that live around here.

Next, comes bonfire night, the older I get the less I like fireworks, I wonder is this Innate. We have some really good organised displays at home but not planning to go to any.

So, then the run up to Christmas starts and all things Christmas takes over. I love the Christmas films most about the run up and make time to watch them.

I have been spending a lot of time here in Wales and was suppose to go home last night but hubby said stay. We have a builder in this week. He will be trying to stop the raising damp on the kitchen, once and for all. He will be taking bricks out one by one at floor level and feeding in a membrane. If this does not work then it will need the foundation repairing, so fingers crossed.

I have never been happy in that house and recently, I have come to conclusion that life is too short to keep on struggling on. So I spend a lot of my time here in Wales, I’m so much happier here. I’m beginning to enjoy my independence and my time away from hubby to much. Our lives have very much taken different paths and I have grown tired of being the only one working on our marriage so have just given up.

Hubby, lives for work and has no real interest outside that. He really enjoys travelling and holidays away from home but does not enjoy being on holiday at home.

Since, I only look after my grandchildren for one of two days each school holiday then I feel redundant. I really have tired to make a new life for myself and tired many new things and tired many news groups and got lot of internet friends but nothing work. It just made me really ill with stress and I don’t really want to be doing any of these things. I’m a home bird and get stressed in groups, so what’s the answer? Well that seems to be spend my time in Wales.

I do believe hubby has realised that I just can’t continue to make myself so Ill while waiting for him to retire. I don’t think the time is to far away when I move here and start to change my address etc. I then wonder what hubby will do?

It’s a beautiful day here in Wales. Just put some washing on as I was not expecting to be here this week as I still volunteer for Mind and have visits this week. I need to bring this to an end soon. I also need to shop as my hair needs a wash and all hair products at home. I have no milk, bread, yougurt drink, little salad items no fresh veg, etc. and really can’t live with out then. I do have meat from local butcher in freezer, so I can freeze that. Strange but true I just fancy a fish finger butty. Must be years since I had one. Naughty but nice. A little bit of what you fancy does you good and all that Jazz.

I don’t have my car here, so will need to walk supermarket and maybe get a taxi home. Or use Iceland and get it delivered. Calling in boots for conditioner.

Well that all for now.