fever in a reflection

in a fevered state
i felt you swim
about me
your fingers clawing at
me digging at me like
knives
no words from
your lips
but i felt you
i feel you
your cold echoing
deep in my bones
the cold makes me weary
and the heat will
fade
i could stand no more
so
i stood at the foot of
your bed and i whispered

do you know he wants to die