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Hi. Laura needs to wake up. But I spose I am kinda happy to be listening to music while she is sleeping. I miss her tho. We’re so weird, missing each other when we sleep. Not bad after 15, almost 16 years together. OMG, did we miss our anniversary? Hang on, lemme check! lol

OK, yea we did. That took a long time. LOL. Imma actually go… here’s some statuses.

Tonite -
Was holding my whiny baby Noah Morgan on my chest/shoulder like a baby and patting him to sleep. Is it because we raise them like babies that they like to be patted like a baby? Like hard-ish pats on the booty that rock their whole body, like you would do to a baby to pat it to sleep. It’s funny, and satisfies any maternal instincts I may have left. LOL. Sometimes I love my babies, even tho I have too many. It’s not their fault. :( They are all so sweet tho. We raise good babies. <3

This happened today:

*When Halee relapsed, we made the decision to temporarily shut down the Hlpe 4 Halee page to allow time for her, and all of her loved ones to deal with everything and have some privacy.

I never dreamed I would be so blessed to have a daughter as strong and spirited as Halee. She could light up the darkness and warm the coldest days with her smile. In her 21 years she taught me so much as a mom and person. Through the last 3 1/2 years, she has fought with more tenacity than I could imagine to win her battle with cancer and she’s done so with a smile. She never wanted to be known as “the girl with cancer” and she never wanted to be forgotten. I promised her that neither of those would happen.

Halee is a warrior that fought against everything she faced with everything she had, right up til her last breath. That is how I’m asking everyone to remember her. So when you speak of my daughter, or share her story and how she touched your life, please tell about the fighter that never quit and remind everyone that she fought so that she could help others with whatever battle they faced.

Remember Halee as the girl who never gave up, but went willingly home to be with God. Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

At 5:15 this evening Halee Bush found her peace in the Lord. We ask for privacy over the next few days as we make her final arrangements on earth. We will announce details when they are available. ‪#‎cancersucks‬ ‪#‎finallyfree‬ *

~She lived in my city. She had a page on FB called “Hope For Halee” that I and a lot of other people followed. She kind of became a local “celebrity”. Me and my Mom ran into her once in Walmart. She was very sweet, and talked to us and we told her we followed her story and were happy to see her doing so well. She was in remission at the time I believe. So sad. I cried. I did not expect it, just out of the blue, ya know? :(

Gorgeous Amy. Always a welcome treat when she posts a new pic. I love how “out” she is right now. She’s everywhere! She’s back! They are back! I’m so excited. :) I love her so much.

Look at those two people in love! I love her so goddamn much. I’ve decided to give in to her needs/wants in regards to the wedding in May. She doesn’t want a “wedding” she just wants us to get married with maybe a couple people there to see. Like in the courthouse or something. I still wanna get a dress. That is my only demand. If she ever wakes up, I can tell her, since I haven’t yet. She will be very happy. I changed my name on FB back to her last name, and she has yet to say anything about it. LOL She is just so observant! lol

Georgia (cat) is not feeling good and being very clingy. She is not taking no for an answer even tho I have a KB on my lap. LOL. I should prolly wrap this up soon.

Today -
Was very brave and watched “When I Walk”, a documentary about a film maker who is diagnosed with Primary Progressive MS, the worst and most aggressive form of the disease. It was hard to watch, but it did have a happy ending I guess.

It was a really profound documentary/movie. If you wanna know more about MS and how it can affect someone in the worst way, you should watch it. It is very interesting and funny too. I will probably end up somewhat like him, having to use a walker or even a scooter. It’s not fun watching someone go thru kinda what you will be in the future. Laura can’t even watch the commercials about MS. LOL. Makes it too real for her. I feel really bad for her having to watch me go down. It’s gonna suck, and there is nothing I can do about it. There is no way for me to ease the pain she is gonna feel watching me decline. I’m not being “negative” or trying to be dark, it’s just realistic. 85% of MS patients end up physically disabled and needing assistance of some sort. I have no illusions about my life anymore. They were all taken away when my head was cut open and I was diagnosed. Sorry, I guess that movie affected me more than I thought. Laura is definitely not gonna wanna watch it. LOL.

Funny status my wife made the other nite:

So my wife was making a fist, and I laughed at how much of a girl she is… she would’ve broken her thumb if she ever punched anything. Then I commented on how most girls can’t make a proper fist unless they are fighters or martial arts practitioners or something… and how I seemed to be born that way. Stephanie said “you were born more like a guy.” I said “yea but I menstruate, tho!”. Like that makes me feminine or something. Lol

Welp, that’s it folks. I guess I should surrender my lap to my girl now. Damn clingu children. LOL. I think she’s sick. I already had to put a drop in her eye that had an ulcer over it. It’s never healed right, and flares up sometimes. She gets treats that she loves that are actually medicine after tho! lol
K, Bai!

Steph

Last updated October 28, 2015