Summer, summer, summer in One day at a time

Ah the weather is a delightful 18deg here today (64f). People have a definite spring in their step and even some of my more morose clients have been pleasant today. I ate my lunch down by the waterfront and it was just lovely. There is a cruise ship in town too, so lots more people around. Apparently there are gale force winds coming through tonight though, that will sort those cruisers out as the leave the harbour at around 6.30pm.

After months of indecision I have decided to “man up” and take out the loan to spruce my house up. I have had a major case of the jellys as my friends all seem to be getting ahead in life and I just seem to be treading water. They are all married to pretty good earners (and all work themselves). All three of my closest have had big overseas holidays this year. One has had a new kitchen put in and just bought a new car and another has taken possession of a beach house. I don’t begrudge any of them their successes but I have a definite (in my head) scream of “why can’t that be meeeeeee”. The tipping point though was when Terri dropped in to see me yesterday. I’m not a fan of the drop by, and would never do it myself. Anyway I sat there feeling embarrassed about how bad my lounge looked. With its icky carpet and stained couch (never never never buy suede people) And something just clicked in my head. I thought “fuck this” I deserve nice stuff too. So yeah, I have an appointment with some guy at the bank on Thursday. I think the house knows I am feeling unloving towards it, the smoke alarm went off at 4.00am (low battery) this morning. Grrrrr. Sent me and the cats scrambling.

Since I last wrote Rich has gone back to being a douche. He is kind of ghosting me at the moment. I’m not worried though, he usually comes back and if he doesn’t well.....at least I will have a nicer house to mope in. Terri tagged me in a facebook pic with a friend of ours and just as the pic was taken he leaned in and kissed me on the cheek. Not sure if that is what started the latest round of douchery, but I think I need to look for someone a bit more mature if it is. Hmm maybe someone mature with money - I would be happy to have drop inn’s at my beach house y’all.