.. sometimes and then some!
I’ve been busy lately. I saw some of my co-workers going back to school. Saw my step daughter and her friend (who is now my adopted daughter) getting ready and I thought - enough is enough.
” Never give up on something you cannot go a day without thinking about.”
There has been days where I don’t think about finishing my education to become a nurse. There are quite a lot of days where I wonder what the ROI (return on investment) will be. There was a time where I said just let the dream die. You have your husband alive. You just traded one for the other. (To which if I had to choose I choose him without any hesitation). I asked around what happens if I apply and I dont want it - Nothing. What happens if I apply for student loans and it’s not enough. If I never take the money they offer me - Nothing. What if I pay all these fees and in the end I don’t go - well then you’ll have your education translated for any other prospect that may come up in the future.
It had me thinking ..... Why not give it a go. What do I really have to lose besides about $400 which is not really a loss just an investment? I talked with my sweetie and it was decided. I would start the ball rolling to get my education back in gear.
Thursday I registered myself with the college. It cost me a whole whopping 40 bucks! Unlike the 100+ back home! I then went down to the college itself to speak with an advisior. She gave me the steps I need to be ready for the winter intake of classes. I have to ‘translate’ my transcripts for a fee of $300.00 (I nearly died at this but there is no other way to do this) and apply for student aid. In order to do this, since I am married, I have to get a hold of my husband’s taxes and file away. (We are still searching for the copies of the taxes filed - damn moving to hell!!)
I happily drove home and started finding all the forms and filling them out. Getting my budget ready to save 300 for this new bill. Things were dandy!
Were....
Yesterday, quite by accident, I discovered that one of my recent medical expenses was not covered by my insurance and is now a bill of $330.00. When I called the insurance company all they kept saying is “Well if you would have called us before going we could have told you it was not covered there.” There is NO documentation in ANY welcome package etc that says you have to call before you go. NO WHERE! Likewise, the lab that incurred this horrid bill never once told me that I would not be covered. They just la-la-la-la sucked out my blood for the blood work and sent me on my way. I feel like I was scammed by the lab. “Oh look another one that won’t notice until its too late!” I also feel taken advantage of by my insurance company.
So there I was crying bitterly because I was SO angry at the entire situation. Here I am getting ready to get the ball going again and shocker.... something else pops up to stand in the way. I’m going to pay them down as quickly as I can all the while saving for this translation that must be completed by the start of December.
There are days, still, that I feel like saying I’m done. Seriously, why must I fight for damn hard for anything that I’ve wanted in my life? My kids, my marriage, now school.... Maybe because nothing that is worth doing comes easy? Yeah, I’ll go with that one!
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