well i just had to reread my last few entries to remember what i had written about before. granted, there’s been a lot of jumbledness here and i don’t believe a lot of writing has been in order.
so my knees have gotten better, but of course, i’ll never really know until i start to put strain on them in some fashion. last friday i tempted fate and the were a shit ton of people waiting for the elevator, so i decided to take the stairs. i could definitely feel the fatigue on my legs and my chest, but my knees seemed fine overall. going to try and do some rowing this coming week and some walking in the neighborhood. also, going to start doing some weight training again. with my trip and summer and random work schedule, my routine has been busted. granted, i got in a few small hikes in new mexico and a few good 8 milers in colorado, i’ve been mostly sedentary since i returned home. gained some weight back, but i feel like once i get in a routine it’ll all work out. just need to find a balance of exercise, nutrition, and food. really more important is getting back in having a routine again.
work life has been alright. i didn’t get the promotion i interviewed for over the phone while i was on vacation. granted, i knew i didn’t do very well at the time. plus, there we technical issues and being on vacation, my mind was pretty out of focus. now i’m mostly doing fiscal stuff with my department since our group has been split into 3 groups who work under the same umbrella. some interesting things have happened on that front. i’ve had offers from two of the bosses in two areas to come do a lateral move. now it’s annoying that they didn’t hire me for the administrator position, but it is what it is. it’d be different in that i’d be working in the field, working with schools and school teams. but since it would be lateral move, my supervisor can nix it. and that’s exactly what happened. i briefly brought it up and he basically said no in some other words. i can’t exactly remember, but i remember the message. however, a few of my bosses have mentioned that i’ve basically got a promotion in the bag in our department if i want it. someone retired at the end of last year and they got approval to move that position to the fiscal group. the plan is for that position to open and then for my position to over a different group under the umbrella. they keep talking about moving the position i am in and i’m guessing that i’d be a shoe in unless i told everyone to fuck off. but they still have to fly it i believe and go through the whole process. i’ve been on the other side, where the group has someone in mind, but just have to prove they’re not directly giving the position to someone. even if they are.
it’s funny how fb works. i’ve posted some things about moving on in a sense, as well as the usual stuff. but now i’ve got some people asking if i am ok. obviously, i wish there were different circumstances, but whatever. it’s funny deciding on what to post where, since our online presence is now spread out. some people have no online presence, where others have i don’t even know how many. granted, i will post, and sometimes cross post things, so different audiences get a different viewpoint on things. sometimes i will post stuff on ig (and possibly push it to fb). there will be an idea behind it, but i don’t often get into it. sometimes i’ll describe it here, but i don’t tend to write a lot (not as much as i used to). somewhat disconnected.
i’ve gotten to know some people across several platforms, but ultimately there is no one i’ve first known in real life who i would let read this. mainly because i can be honest and just hash things out, whether it’s just to put it out there, or to think about later.
i’ve actually had the next conversation with several people. and it’s strange. people seem to think i am easy to talk to. well some anyway. well crap, their my friends and family, so one would hope so. anyway, i’ve always felt that my conversational style (or lack thereof), my humor, and who knows what else, is not great for meeting new people. i’ve grown up an introvert and i’ve tended to live in my head and have a close circle of friends. growing as an adult, sometimes i tend to overtalk or just say random shit that is in my head which is probably best suited for internal thoughts rather than rational conversation. similar to here, i may just talk about anything and everything to random people just to get it out of my head. this does not always make for a great conversations or friends.
i feel like i don’t look like the type who looks like he is having a good time. at a few functions people have actually asked me if i was having a good time. one time, at a convention, i was pulled into some dancing thing; i think it was because i appeared not to be having fun. it was an interesting experience considering that it was a performance by a band consisting of mitch albom, stephen king, amy tan, among others.
so i didn’t actually write about any events. i was thinking about that too. there are several types of writers. you have those who will write about daily (weekly, what have you) events without getting to deep into them. over the course of months or years, you get to know their thinking a little more. then you have the people who tend to write from the head. those who only post poems or writings (typically relating to events or feelings), but don’t specifically state motivation or rarely discuss events.
i tend to fall in the third category. i feel like i tend to write about both. however, this is not always in a linear or timed fashion. i can go for periods where i write about one of the other, but in the end, i feel like i connect the dots. possibly not completely, because there still some things that are hard to put into words or are just forgotten.
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