Long hot summer.... in Muddling Through As Best I Can
- July 2, 2015, 5:04 p.m.
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Well, it’s blisteringly hot here. So much so that I haven’t been able to take the grandkids outside to play. It’s either rained every day, or been too hot and humid. Soon though, the fall will be here and we’ll be able to go have some outdoor fun.
Nothing has changed with the granddaughters. We still have Sienna three days a week, but haven’t yet been to court on Raina, and Pamala will not let us see her. It’s frustrating, as she doesn’t have custody and is in violation of a court order, but we have to appear before the judge to have it enforced. I’ve been saying constant prayers for patience, but it’s not coming easy. We have a court date on July 17th to hopefully get some things settled, so I’m trying to do things the right way, but it’s difficult in this situation. I really just want to walk into her home and walk out with my granddaughter, but I’m resisting.....
I’m back at work after a month off, and it’s a good thing, it takes my mind off of the custody issues and helps prevent me from making a rash decision. It was uncomfortable due to everyone’s questions and condolences, but that died down after a day or two and it’s back to business as usual for the most part.
I finally recovered Bradley’s wedding ring from the hospital, which was a huge relief. I was kind of devastated when it was lost. It is now on the fourth finger of my right hand until his daughter is old enough to receive it. Several people have asked for it, but this one thing I will keep for myself to pass along. I am his Dad, so I’m claiming that honor for myself.
Well, I have to run out for extra supplies for supper, so I’m keeping it short and hopefully not so depressing this time around. My spirits a bit better overall. Not pushing myself, I am too familiar with grief to think it’s all okay this quickly, but I’ve started healing and am in a calm spot spiritually at this moment.
I hope everyone has a good weekend, be safe.
I need tea. ⋅ July 03, 2015
xxx