16 years gone by in I'm here...(an intro)

And I’m still in love with my ex from high school. Does it ever go away? Really, am I the only one that’s experienced this?? I mean, I’ve obviously moved on in some sense of it, but I always think back to him. Like daily. My only theory is that we broke up, mutually agreeing to it, for no reason other than lack of time for each other. We loved each other. We meshed well. There was friendship, respect, very few differences in views on life. There are still mutual feelings between us. A few months or a year ago I dropped him from Facebook because the thoughts of him intensified. He recently requested me again and I accepted and here comes that same intensity. I want to talk to him more in depth about it just hoping to clear my head but I don’t want him out of my life completely again either. We’re very “surface” oriented with each other as an unspoken rule. It’s been that way since our break up. There was a huge span of time we didn’t speak after the split that was mostly started by me. The night we ended it, it was over the phone. I truly believe he just didn’t want to hurt me by not being able to spend time with me. We stayed on the phone in silence for some time. He was making sure we were ok. After we been apart for awhile, I met my son’s dad and well…had my son lol. That relationship didn’t last long. When my son was close to a year old, we had a moment but then he up and decided to move out of state. We’ve crossed paths a couple more times and kept in touch. I don’t know…I love him though. He’s never been anything but kind to me. I think it just has always felt like unfinished business though. The natural course of the relationship was derailed twice (I’m close to saying 3 times but the last time was iffy lol). The other day we bantered back and forth for a few. I initiated it because I enjoy torturing myself. Before I hit send on the first message my heart was HAMMERING. But again…all surface stuff lol.