So some of you out there know that i have been fighting with my weight for a very long time. i have tried many many different things to loose the weight and also to keep it off once it comes off. so far i have been unsusscessful.
recently i have tried a drug from my Dr called Phentramene. its basicaly like legal meth. lol. anyways, i was on that for about 6 months and at first it really really helped get my body in the mood and in the right frame of mind to burn fat. it really gave me energy and made me feel great. After about 3 months we upped the dosage and thats when i think everything went downhill. i kept on with the 5x5 lifting program i have been doing and aside from the few little burps in it i have been getting stronger and stronger. i am currently dead lifting about 230 lbs and benching about 130 lbs.
i started taking mesurments and at first i had lost 5 inches in the first month and then another 2 inches in my waist the following month. after that i stopped loosing inches and the last time i took mesurments i had gained 3 of them back. not wanting to let that get to me i kept going at it. the gym every other day at least and eating right.
recntly my diet fell off a little bit, but i am getting that back in line here very soon. but the biggest reason i am making this change is because i saw some pictures of myself from the back as we were camping last week. i hated how i looked. i looked so wide and large and not in a good way. all sorts of spread out. as well as all the pictures of me i have seen sitting by the camp fire and walking around. all spread out. i cant take it any more.
so me and Stef have been talking about this a little bit for a while and i have been really looking into it and i have decided to start the process with my dr to get gastric bypass done. I know that this is like a last ditch effort but i want to be healthy, i want to be alive to see my sons grow up and have kids and familys of their own and if i keep getting bigger and not taking care of myself then i wont be around to see and experance all of that.
i know that this is a life changing decision, but something needs to happen. i have tried everything that i can think of and so far i have found nothing that works for me in the long run. sure, i can drop a lot juicing, but who can live forever on nothing but juice?? and everything else i have tried just doesnt work.
so on Wednesday i am going in to talk to him about this, seeing we have started down this road when he put me on the pills, and see what happens.
im actualy very excyted about all of this. i am ready and willing to make a change. i am tired of being the big guy. i want to be able to buy my cloths in the regular section of the store and not have to go to a big and tall store or order from a mag or anything like that. also to be able to fit in the amusement rides with my family without having 2 ride operators try and stuff me in the chair to get it to clasp. (and yes that did happen about a year ago at lagoon on the bat. the people in line were cheering me on. lol)
something needs to change… i need to change!!
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