Argh.
I’m so lost and confused as to what to do with Steven…
I feel it is best to cut of ALL contact with him unless having to do with kids.
I’ll NEVER be more than a fuck. Never will be, never was. At least to him.
So now he expects me to be cool with him giving some other girl what I’ve been begging for for 4 fucking years while treating me pretty much the same as he always has…
Nah.
For my own mental stability, I don’t think I can do it. I’m not even human to him anymore. It’s sad.
I think him having a new girlfriend is root of my upset-ness. Yes, I know I made that word up… But I’m upset.
Dealing with me and the boys no longer being the center of his world is upsetting. The fact that I’m literally only good for one thing is upsetting.I don’t even get credit for anything I do as a Mom for our boys, I don’t get credit for anything I have done or still do for him… Ugh. Over it.
Honestly, she can have him. I deserve someone who loves me for my mind, body, and soul. It just sucks dealing with change. Especially when its been your life for so long.
I know I’ll find someone else who cares.. Even more than he did.
Just a finished chapter can be sad sometimes.
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