I hadn’t really had any. Ok, maybe one… about two months ago, when I realized my friends were getting together and having fun without me. So I sorta realized that was gonna happen before I decided to become a mom… seeing as I can’t get drunk or stay out as much, but it still hurt. Technically, I could stay out as much as I want, but I’ve realized I DON’T WANT TO. It’s no fun being sober when everyone else is buzzed. You can take it for two hours, maybe three. After that it all just seems really lame and you start getting bored.
So anyway, that was just for a couple of hours, but I felt really crappy. Then my mood bobbed up again and I was happy.
Now I wouldn’t say I’m exactly sad… but I feel lots of different things during the day, and for no reason at all. For example I’ll get unreasonably annoyed at something dumb, like people talking at the same time as me. Or weirdly hyped on something–anything–and then get so sleepy I feel like I NEED a nap.
Nothing too serious though. I try hard not to let it show… cos it ain’t anyone’s fault but my own. I wanted this baby so much and I’m willing to take anything that comes with it. But others don’t! It’s not their fault. LOL.
So anyway… life’s become a lot quieter. I still have a pretty active social life, it just doesn’t involve as much dancing and drinking. Maybe it was about time. I AM 36 after all. Normally… I feel really good. Even doing totally mundane stuff, like housework, and condo work (that deserves an entry of its own), and so forth.
For example, today’s highlights:
- Supermarket
- Putting away summer clothes and bringing out Winter clothes.
- Cooking
- Playing with cat
- Watching reruns of Little House on the Prairie, CSI New York, The Middle and Stalker (diverse, I know!)
What an adventurous life I lead. LOL!!
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