So in my last entry i touched breifly on my grandfather being in the hospital. he was rushed to the ER Thursday night around 10pm or so with some sever chest pains. now he has had 3 heart attacks and has a stent put in. he has also had prostrate cancer, kidney cancer, liver cancer and has been fighting lung cancer for the past 5+ years. So when he starts hurting we all kind of freak out and stuff.
So the ER here thought that he was having some heart problems and with us living in a small town there is no cardiologist or heart team or anything like that. so any time something like that comes up they sent the patients to SLC. thats the nearest biggest city to us. So they sent him by plane because the chopper had left with another patient and he needed to go now. so they sent him down and the SLC hospital started getting into his problems. running tests and everything like that. Well it turns out that he wasnt haveing a heart attack or had he had one recently. great!! so now what is wrong?
Well the internist came and saw him today and started running her own tests and everything like that and what she found wasnt good. She found a good size mass on his upper/middle lobe of his lung. basicaly his lung cancer is spreading! he had been told that they had it under control and that they were actually shrinking a bit and that everything was going good. well apparently not. this came as a huge hit to us and our family. we have all known that lung cancer is something you die from or die with. but this put everything back to squair one.
a few years after he was diagnosed with lung cancer and after fighting it hard he asked me what i would think if he stopped fighting it and just let it take him. i can understand why he wanted to stop fighting it because the chemo and all the other pills he has to take it was taking his life away. sure he was and is alive, but he wasnt living. i told him i would really miss him if he left us, but i would understand if he wanted to stop fighting it. he didnt stop fighting it, but his quality of life has gone really down hill. he doesnt get out and do anything cause he hurts and he has no energy to do anything anyways.
so now his cancer is spreadin to his other lung and we will have to wait till monday for him to have a biopsy of it and 2 to 3 days to get the results back. so it wont be till about wednesday or thursday to see how bad this all really is. we are all hoping that it is banine and not agressive. all i want is some more time with him. i need to spend more time with him because hwo knows how much longer he has with us.
P.S. on my way to work i called both of them up t talk to them about it and at the end of the phone call he said ” take care and i love you mijo.” that really got to me, he hardly ever says things like that. it really touched me.
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