Everyone here at the house left until Tomorrow, Sat.
They left on Wednesday… at first it was awesome having the house to myself, now today, I don’t like it…. yesterday was fun, listen to music, did my laundry and did my homework.
Today not so much. I finished one last load of laundry I had and cleaned the house, since tomorrow morning I have my class and will not have time to clean before they come back.
I’m listening to music and trying to stay busy and positive but today is probably not the day.
It just all reminds me of when I was living with Cintya. Especially on Saturdays and Sundays, when she went to work, I would stay at home by myself, I would watch TV, cleaned the house, listen to music, made sure it was spotless before she got home and the rest of the afternoon I would just lie on the couch. The only difference now is that she wont be walking through the door...
It sucks…it really does.
I need to be strong, and forget or push all those memories way…to a place when I can’t remember them ever!!!
I need to be strong. Forget that world…that life, that’s over and done with. I need to move on.
But I don’t feel I have the motivation to keep going. I have a ton of homework to do…yet I just stare at it with a blank look. Not knowing how to start it.
Fuck!
Maybe a shower will help.
I made the mistake before to let an old memories take over my life and everything. Not going to make that mistake again…I can’t. I won’t!
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